Today… it got me into thinking.

The future is something that none of us would ever predict; more so for me. And yes of course, it’s a basic thought but it’s worth the time to ponder about. You see… Maybe tomorrow I’ll fail at something, get my knees bruised, loose a prized gadget or what… or more drastically, loose someone I love.

I know we’ve all been jaded with the picture of such a thing that a perfect love exists. But can it really exist? People change and some things can just get in the way and sabotage it all. Even the really minor things. Fights…big fights can’t be avoided because it will come. It will. Maybe along the way I might even get my first deepest cut with him too. (Nooooo!!!!)

So… Yep. Love is really fragile. Trust. Honesty. Bond.

Almost everything… and it scares me. It always does. I just hope that I could control everything but that’s not possible, right? For instance, I always want to make sure that what Charles and I have will last forever. That’s why sometimes I may come out as needy, nagging, or whatever. But it’s just all part of my insecurities and my fears. And I know I have to get over with it. Fast.

The future is too big for me to handle into thinking. So I continually tell myself to just start living with the present. Cause all will just fall into place—now this statement just leads me back to square one. (Refer to above.) See? It’s all so scary to just lay it all on to the great fragile plan that’s laid out before me…

-sigh-

I guess for now, I can say that I’m trying to get it over with.

I don’t want to loose Charles. He’s one of the very most important people in my life if not the MOST important.

So yeah, maybe there’s no such thing as a perfect love, but we, or I, will always try to make what we have into something not so perfect… but close to it. Let’s make it to forever…. please? =P

The result of watching an episode of One Tree Hill :))

Recently, I’ve finally decided on watching this series which my boyfriend loves so much… :))

And it’s really good! I’m about to finish Season 2! HAHA and there’s still a lot of seasons to go. But the funny thing about watching this series? We got to bond a lot! And a lot of emotions are surfacing. :)) And it’s fun, because ang kulit niya. He wants to spoil me but he knows he shouldn’t. LOL.

And oh… in every scene or dilemma it gets funnier when the both of us go into conversations like this:

“Hey! Don’t cheat like what he did!”

“Don’t follow Hayley. For fame? Tsss…”

“Don’t go to jail, dude.”

“Ew! That’s just gross! Don’t die early, babe, ‘cause I don’t want to make a choice of being a cougar.”

“Just… don’t. Ever. Do THAT!”

“Gross!”

HAHAHAHA!! And lots more.