_{I feel like ranting tonight. Forgive me for the drama. I just need this on my blog.}

In all honesty… I didn’t want 2011 to come because I wasn’t ready yet to face the responsibilities that this year will bring. (To think that I was so hyped up during New Year! HAHA! Well that’s just me, I’m up for celebrations!) 

The thing is… I still wanted to cling on to that same familiarity without facing the real world—without facing the obligations that I had to do this year. I wanted to be able to stay in that period where I can still be as dependent as I can be and not think about working yet.

But I have to stop being selfish and delusional. I have to grow up. I have to start working. I have to face the reality that I am in… that our family is in—if this is even what it is called.

Soon I’ll be graduating and I would really love to spend more time enjoying my teenage life before I start working. Partying out, travelling more, get wild, the shit. But that’s something I can’t do. In my family, I don’t have that luxury anymore. Everything’s… yeah, f’ed up.

But it’s okay. I accept this.

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What did you do in 2010 that you’ve never done before?
-recalls- Wow, my brain is dead. But I guess… traveling to another country!! YEP. My first time and it was with my boyfriend & his family! LULZ. My family isn’t that much of a traveling-type, that’s why. So there. :)) What else? There was actually a lot…

• Riding a roller coaster. FIRST TIME AGAIN. Adrenaline rush? I LOVE.
• Kart racing!
• Bungee trampoline—scared the shit out of me. I guess I’m still afraid of heights.
• Got almost drunk. Almost. 8++ Cuervo Shots and 10++ The Bar shots—and still made it through; with a headache but I was not drunk. OH YEAH :))
• Paintball.
• Tried out Frisbee!
• Trips with Cha—only the two of us! Overnights at Tagaytay and can’trememberwhatelse. :))
• Wrecked a car. LOL.
• Had a **** :P

I’ll stop now. Can’t remember what else and my mind is straining so hard I should give it a rest.

Did you keep your New Years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?  
I used to make those… but by the end of the first month or even the first 3 weeks—I forget them. So… I guess they really are meant to be broken or are just for show. LOL. That’s why what I’ll be doing is to just be the better me for the new year. Now that’s tops.

What countries did you visit?  
Hong Kong! I miss it there… the boyfriend’s visiting there next year. Hate you. :))

What would you like to have in 2011 that you lacked in 2010? 
Hmmm… I guess better grades? But it’s not like I don’t have good grades. I’m talking about better grades as in all subjects: “4.0” LOL.

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So after I made the Happy New Year post, it made me itchy to write this other entry! Just because…. I want to recall how 2009 was for me :)

The start of 2009 was a fresh start. I realized by that time that I’m starting a different life…

Of course, there included was the fact that I am actually taken at that time. I had someone, a partner, and it was quite a sudden yet pleasant thing. For once in my life I realized that my patience paid off, because God suddenly gave me someone—a certain someone whom I wouldn’t have ever imagined to be my boyfriend—who in more ways than one is the best-est person I’ve ever met. He made me learn, experience, and enjoy life as it is. And for that I am very thankful.

As months and days passed by, we bit by bit learned more about each other; apart from the things we learned at the time that we were best friends. And as time progressed more, we surely had our own problems (wherein most of our friends think that we don’t have such) and fortunately, we always find a way to fix it. By the middle of the year, I guess I was shaken by a sudden thing and it made me a little bit disappointed… which then lead me to a trance of ‘green-eyed-dilemma’… It was bumpy and it still is, but I’m working on it. And besides he’s still there reassuring me to stop assuming. Haha. XD

All and ever the same, for all that it is worth. Thank you for everything Cha… I love you very much :P

Forever is surely an overrated word, but we can make it. We will ♥

Also, 2009 made me meet a lot of new friends! :D ….and lost some close ones. But that loss wasn’t really a loss. It made me realize that I don’t need those type of people and there’s no need to dwell on how we’ve lost connection or what. There was a reason as to why they’re not part of my future now…and that reason was enough to prove that they aren’t worth it. We had good memories, but time definitely told me as to what they really were. And I’m thankful for realizing it swiftly because I don’t want to live a life with them in it. But thank you all the same to you people, for at least, you were a part of something in my life and I won’t regret meeting you guys. But I’m not hating you all okay… or anything. Oh well. XD

As for my friends, thank you for a wonderful year :)

I might not be the best-est friend-material but I surely am thankful for having you all in my circle. I actually and honestly keep and connect with few people around me (I have trust issues HAHA) but it doesn’t stop me from appreciating and finding the good in others. Hmmmm, enough of my blah-blah! HAHA! But to all my friends, you get the message; you’re all great! Let’s continue to be great all together! :))

For the corporate people I’ve met in my practicum… you guys rock! Haha! You have surely moldedme more into a person that I really would like to be. Thank you for the experiences. For all! It’s something that can’t be learned just by anyone around my age, and for that… I love you all! Miss Nina, Miss Roline, Miss Gerby and Miss Carol. :) It was a fun stay! I miss you guys :(

….okay this is getting long. HAHA.

-sigh- Overall! It was a rough yet still sweet 2009! It’s so…. overwhelming to recall all of what happened to me for the past 365 days. It’s actually fun! But this ‘recalling’ thing will stop here. It’s time I start living with the present again; pasts are just so troublesome to constantly think about…so there. :P

God Bless to you all! :D

YES! 2010!

Gaaaahd, time surely flies by too fast. By this year I’ll be expecting my 19th birthday, my 2nd Practicum, Charles’ drinking age (LOL), challenges, difficulties, unpredictabilities, parties, etc. And of course, I’ll be expecting it to be a better year! ;D (It should be!)

2009 was full of events and happenings that might have been disappointing and sad not only for me but for all. But I still am thankful for 2009 because with it, I became a better person and I’ve certainly learned a lot about myself and the world around me. Aaaaand I’m trying to improve at the moment—and 2010 will give me that chance. It’s actually scary you know? The uncertainty of what is ahead of me… but it’s all okay and sweet. I’ll stay strong though I might get swayed. I’ll keep my head sane (HAHA) amidst this crazy world. I’ll push through with life. And I am hopeful—but I’m sure—that I will also survive this year yet again with Charles! ♥

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I’m so excited for what’s ahead! Bring it on 2010!

And oh. Let’s all make it a good—great—year! Yay! :)